Five hundred and fifty-seven of you follow this blog on Facebook and my stats tell me that a couple hundred of you still come over here to read now and then. A glance at my stats occasionally may be the only thing keeping me from ditching this blog. I feel crazy for even saying that since when I started blogging way back in 2005? I couldn’t imagine ever wanting to quit. I shamed those who failed to write daily. I told them things like the more you write the more you have to say. I think I still believe that, but I’m not sure I want to say anything anymore.
I’m sure you noticed I don’t blog near as often as I used to. Part of that is because I got a job. I added a whole new set of things I have to do on the computer so something had to drop off.
I used to go through my day and have a running commentary in my head of things I wanted to write on the blog. That no longer happens. If anything does emerge, my alter ego pushes it back down with words like, “no one wants to hear about that.” I’m not even sure I’ll publish this post because this is not a plea for help. I don’t want anyone to think I’m asking for a bunch of “please don’t gos” because this is just me thinking aloud. I’m just writing it out maybe to find a direction. Because at times I’ve wondered if I’m just headed in a new direction and if I give it time the direction will reveal itself and all will be right with the writing world again.
How do you know when it’s time to quit?
I go back and forth. This space is like an old friend, but we’re growing apart.
Maybe I’m just on a break.
Maybe the desire to blog here will come back to me.
Maybe I won’t abandon it forever.
Me, I’ll be just fine and dandy. Like a hard candy Christmas. (sorry, I almost never burst into song like that.)
Maybe it’s just impossible to run two blogs, two trains of thought on two different pages. I write here now and try to decide what works best where when I’d rather just be one place, one mind, but would that even work?
I’m just thinking things over. Thanks for listening.